xafyre_08 (xafyre_08) wrote in ihatemyparents,
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My mom is my number one enemy

I.ve got good grades, I do extracurricular activities. I even maintain my reputation as a good and humble student. Yet, my mom is still not satisfied. Even her co-workers said that "Oh, your kid is so nice and polite. You raised her very well." But, I just do not understand her. Not even a single compliment I heard her say to me. She can only looked at my mistakes, not even a glance to where I am good at. She looked down on me. Ive tried everything to please her but failed. She also compared me to my cousin EVERYTIME. Ive got the feeling that she loved my cousin more that me. I HATE HER.

Not only that, she is also overly protective. I cannot hang out with my friends. I cannot have a guy friend. She gave me allowance for only ONE REASON = EAT. Because I need money to enjoy my SUPPOSEDLY WONDERFUL YOUTH, I prepared my resume for a part time job. But she said if I go to work, she will kicked me out of the house and become independent - of course I cant do that. I do not have much money to even pay a rent. Because she was always sheltering me, I did not gained confidence of being INDEPENDENT. It sucks to see my future being so ignorant to the world because your mom keep you out of the world.

I wanted to have my own life AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. That made me think of me going away for college. But my mom "THREATENS" me that if I apply to any colleges not in my state, she will send me back to the country where I grew up. (I was born in US but I grew up in a third world country - I LOVE US). I argued with her that why cant you let me loose a little bit. But she said, AS LONG AS YOU LIVE UNDER ME, YOU OBEY ME. I am an only child living with a mother and a father. That means, NO ONE IN THIS FAMILY I CAN TALK TO BURST OUT THIS FEELIGNS. Its 2 vs. 1 battle. My decisions; my emotions - they were always under control by my parents.

I am already 17 years old and I have never even have gone to a sleep over to a friends house. They totally blocked me from the world. The only way to contact the world is through this computer - which is also limited. Ive got banned to use this computer in 3 months because Ive been using them the entire time. HECK, THIS IS MY ONLY FRIEND THAT I CAN HAVE, YOU TOOK AWAY EVERYTHING.

BECAUSE MY PARENTS KEEPING ME FROM DOING THE THINGS THAT I WANT, I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO WANT ANYMORE. I AM GOING TO COLLEGE AND I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I WANT BECAUSE I ALWAYS THINK WHAT MY PARENTS WANT ME TO DO THAT PLEASES THEM. NOT WHAT I REALLY DESIRE. I LOSE ALL THOSE THRILL; MY YOUTH AT AN EARLY AGE AND I AM NOW A LIVING ZOMBIE, WHO DOES NOT CARE ANYMORE. I JUST DO WHAT MY MASTERS WANT ME TO

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